Almond Roca Bars

Baking has been such a life-giving hobby for me the past few months… it’s my outlet for creativity & rejuvenation. Also a way to make my family happy and bond with my toddler. I have made quite a dent in my Sprinkles Baking Book and cannot wait to share the latest recipe with you.

Three ways I can think of to describe my new-found love for baking:

  • Nick & I watched Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them last night (so good, btw) and I loved one of the main characters, Jacob. It’s set in the 1920’s and he’s a muggle (harry potter lingo) working in a canned foods factory, but claims it’s sucking the life out of him because no one wants to eat canned food. His dream is to open up a bakery because “pastries make people happy” and he just wants to make people happy. I thought that was so sweet and resonated with it a ton.
  • Second… I’m obsessed with The Great British Baking Show (for many reasons) and it’s inspired me to try new things, new flavors & get creative. I love how none of the contestants are professional bakers. They all have different vocations (nurses, lawyers, accountants), but love to bake on the side & have excelled at it. That’s definitely one of my goals.
  • Thirdly, I just want to acquire the skill of making yummy treats for my boys. My mom never baked (although she did make bomb Persian food). And I’ve always wanted to be able to make delicious cakes or cookies or whatever for holidays, birthdays & special occasions. Hopefully this will make it, not only a fun hobby, but something I become good at.



Almond Roca Bars


For the base:

  • 3/4 C (1.5 sticks) unsalted butter, softened
  • 1.5 C all-purpose flour
  • 1/4 tsp baking powder
  • 1/4 tsp salt
  • 1/2 C sugar

For the topping:

  • 12 oz semi-sweet chocolate (or milk or dark… whatever you prefer)
  • 1 C of roasted almonds
  • 1/2 C of unsweetened coconut flakes (lightly toasted)

Make the Base

  • Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.
  • Butter the bottom & sides of a 9-inch square pan.
  • In a medium bowl, whisk together the flour, baking powder & salt.
  • In the bowl of a stand mixer fitted with a paddle attachment, beat the butter & sugar until creamy (~2 mins). Add flour mixture & beat for another minute.
  • Press dough into the prepared pan & bake until golden (~17-19 mins).

Make the Topping

  • In a microwave-safe bowl, microwave the chocolate for 2 minutes, stopping to stir every 30 seconds until melted.
  • Stir half of the almonds & coconut flakes into the melted chocolate.
  • Spread the chocolate over the cooled base in the pan.
  • Sprinkle with remaining almonds & coconut flakes, pressing gently to help them adhere to the chocolate.
  • Refrigerate for 30 minutes to harden, then cut into 20 bars.

Surviving Week One


Last week was Nick’s first week back to work full-time. I was horrified and excited to figure out what solo parenting these peanuts would be like… I had ups & downs and endured multiple meltdowns (myself included).

Having a newborn & a toddler is just as crazy as it sounds. But there were things that definitely made the week easier.

What’s Helped Me Survive

  • Mocha Overnight Oats
    This has been INCREDIBLE for several reasons:
    1) I don’t have to make breakfast for myself in the morning (it’s made the night before).
    2) I get caffeine (there’s coffee in it).
    3) I get protein (there are oats & almond milk in it).
    4) It’s delicious (chocolate).
    I’ll be posting this recipe in the days to come, but I’m sure you can whip it together with the gist I just gave you. And it tastes amazing.
    PS how have I never thought about putting coffee in with the milk when I make overnight oats?? Brilliant.
  • Toddler Toys
    More specifically, toys that keep my 2 year old pre-occupied. The toys that have done this the best is a little bowling set I got him and the “gone fishing” game.
  • Emails & Texts
    I apologize to all my wonderful friends who have left voicemails and haven’t heard back from me. As I’ve said plenty, I’m a zombie right now and lack energy for phone conversation. But what’s kept me totally sane has been being able to text and email girlfriends. Even if I don’t have energy for coffee dates or long phone chats, I love that I get some friend time this way.
  • Perspective
    The best thing I’ve been able to do over the last week has been remind myself that this season is temporary. With that, I not only begin to cherish the really little, beautiful moments, but I also find relief in knowing that things will get easier. Kai WILL sleep through the night one day and he WILL be less fragile/needy as time goes on. One day my boys will be old enough to play together and I won’t be hanging by a thread trying to cater to them both separately at once. Of course different challenges come with different seasons… but the challenges of this season will soon be over.
  • Gratitude
    Finding beauty in things as little as my morning coffee… or our new fall candle that makes our home smell like the holidays. Finding gratitude in things as big as my two precious, healthy boys & my amazing community. Looking for beautiful moments, even when I’m tired and cranky, has been surprisingly simple.
  • Comedic Relief
    Thank you, Mindy Project and New Girl for giving me some quality laughs while I’m on the verge of meltdown.
  • Baby Carrier
    Kai lives in the Ergo. Apparently I’ve got an intense snuggler on my hands… he loves being upclose and personal so whenever he gets fussy I just put him in the Ergo (that literally glues him to my chest) and all is calm again.
  • Community
    Last, but certainly not least (in fact, the most helpful), our community has been vital. We are unbelievably grateful for dear friends & family who have dropped by to say hello, bring meals, groceries &/or help with the boys… I don’t know how we’d make it without you.

What’s Been Difficult

  • Bedtime
    Trying to put down a 2 year-old while caring for a hungry/crying 3 week-old feels pretty close to impossible when you’re the only parent home. Hopefully I’ll get a good routine down for this soon.
  • Getting Out
    Getting out of the house has been very difficult, but at the same time, absolutely vital to survival. Even if it’s as simple as going on a walk with the boys in the morning… nothing frees you from the feeling of house arrest quite like actually getting out of the house.

That’s my gist for week 1 of solo parenting.

My goals for this week are to shower every day and get out of the house at least once per day. Already excited to figure out somewhat of a routine 🙂

Would love to hear from you! What’s helped other mom’s during this transition?

Life As a Mommy of Two


My first blogpost ever was written a few months after I had Josh, entitled “Life as a Mommy”. It feels crazy now to be back full circle and updating you all on “Life as a Mommy of TWO”.

Yes, I gave birth less than a couple weeks ago. Yes, I am completely sleep-deprived. But I have been eager to write, not just to give my dear friends an update, but also to really remember and cherish these moments. The first six weeks post-partum are always a blur (which is probably why everyone’s willing to have multiple children). But I want to record even the most exhausting of moments. Because one day these two cuties will be too big to snuggle with…

Here are a few updates on how life has been as a mommy of two (what’s been new, note-worthy, or totally different from round one):

Labor & Delivery

  • Labor moved a lot more quickly.
    I went into labor the exact same way both times (my water broke in the middle of the night the day before my due date), which happens to be an extremely uncommon way to go into labor. The first time, my body could not begin contracting on it’s own and I ended up being in labor for 30 hours before having an emergency c-section.
  • I had a successful VBAC!
    Luckily, my body began to go into labor on it’s own this time! I was contracting within an hour after my water breaking and was able to deliver Kai via VBAC, barely any pitocin and only after about 15 hours of labor. Still long, but technically half the time!

First Couple Weeks at Home

  • I miss Josh.
    It’s pretty drastic going from giving your son 100% of your attention down to about 10%. Josh spends the majority of his time with Nick now (since I have to nurse the baby). The other day I decided to take Josh to the park for a quick mommy-son date during Kai’s nap and as we were walking out the door, Josh turns to Nick and says “Daddy, put your shoes on!”, but when Nick told him he wasn’t joining us, Josh started to cry. And if I’m being honest, it took everything in me to not wallow in my heartbreak… that suddenly, mommy & Josh time wasn’t enough 😦 But I’m acknowledging that this may well be the season we’re in & that’s okay.
  • I wish I could give Kai 100%.
    On the flip side, it is also bizarre having a newborn, yet still needing to cater to an extremely demanding toddler. When we had Josh, we were able to put 100% focus on him, but it’s just not the same with newborn #2.
  • I’m getting out of the house much faster.
    Four days after giving birth, Nick & I had a very quick mini date night at this coffee shop right by our apartment while my aunt watched the boys. It was crazy but SO needed.
  • I’m desperate for exercise.
    The pregnancy weight seems to be dropping fairly quick (thanks to breastfeeding), but as I learned last time, even when I do return to pre-pregnancy weight, it does NOT mean my body will look the same as before. That requires work. And as per doctors orders, I’m on a “no-exercise” regimen until six weeks post-partum. I’m very eager to start treating my body right again.
  • I’m attempting to soak up the little moments.
    As tempting as it is to see this season as exhausting & full of sleep-deprivation (which is all true), I’m reminding myself continually to soak up these precious moments… ones where I get to just snuggle up with my new baby and relax, without worrying about work or any other agenda.

Favorite Items Post-Partum

  • SoundBub.
    About to make a shameless plug for my friend’s company’s product. We are in LOVE with our SoundBub (from the company WavHello), which is a portable sound soother, but also has blue tooth, which means you can play whatever you want on it from your phone or ipad. Josh is absolutely obsessed. And it’s also been super helpful for Kai.
  • Kindle.
    Makes reading while nursing or lying in bed infinitely easier.
  • Trader Joe’s Gummies
    For some reason, I’ve been intensely craving this particular snack ever since labor. My lovely friend got me three bags and, yes, I finished it all.
  • Face Masks & Dry Shampoo
    My sweet friend sent me the best care package last week, filled with goodies that let me pamper myself during this time where I feel totally un-feminine. Felt loved AND girly again.

More photos & fun to come as I get more sleep and baby starts to plump up 🙂

Starting the Toddler Years: the fun & the not-so-fun

Welcome to the Toddler years! Where everything changes… my mind is constantly swarming with ideas on how to keep him pre-occupied and learning. He’s running around. He sleeps standing up (stubborn kid). He loves to hug and kiss his mama. There are so many wonderful things and so many not-so-wonderful things. Here’s my little take on toddler life so far:

The fun:

  • I gave Joshua his first haircut!
    YES I DID. Mama did it. All by herself. Go mama, go mama… (sung in a melodious chant to herself). I’m really excited I was able to do this. All I needed to do was watch a few YouTube videos, buy some haircutting shears and a styling comb and I was good to go. It was surprisingly therapeutic to cut his hair. And he doesn’t look too bad 😉

n case you forgot what he used to look like…


Yeah, maybe we let it go a little too long…

  • My kid’s a chatterbox.
    He talks talks talks talks TALKS. I mean babbles. But he’s saying words now! At the store, he will literally wave and excitedly say “HELLO!” to everyone we pass. It’s pretty cute. And he’s into hand gestures. And clapping. It’s the best 🙂
  • He kisses, hugs and gives all sorts of love ❤
    It’s really cute actually. Ever since we taught him “give me kiss” or “give teddy bear kiss”, he’s been doing it nonstop. In fact, I’ll sometimes catch him sitting there hugging and kissing his teddy (of course, this is right before he chucks him across the room, so I don’t know how affectionate it is..) But it’s still friggin’ adorable.
  • He’s feeding himself! Utensils and all!
    Thank God. This means I don’t have to spoon feed him all day long. Hallelujah!


The not-so-fun:

  • He hits & throws… on purpose.
    It’s pretty nuts to see your innocent little baby go from angel child to tantrum-ing toddler. We’re still figuring out what our discipline strategy is. We’ve found timeout works really well.
  • He no longer has stranger danger.
    I don’t know how this happened. It’s actually a tad embarrassing when he hugs random strangers in line at Disneyland. Or where ever. We have to figure this one out since this simply will not do.
  • He’s all. over. the. place.
    A whole new meaning to Miley’s song, “We can’t stop. And we won’t stop.” The good news is that I’m always getting a workout chasing after him. Oh and I totally understand the toddler leash thing now…. Nick disagrees, but I really think he’ll see the magic once we use it. Where do I even get one of those?
  • He needs to learn how to share.
    Officially at an age where he’s understanding what’s okay and what’s not okay. He’ll learn sharing is caring soon enough.

That’s all for now. What are your tips for entering into Toddler life?

On Motherhood, Fasting & Waiting

It’s been a while since I’ve written a real post. You know… one that isn’t a list of things I’m “currently into”… As most of you know, I was working full-time at a skilled nursing facility all summer, while trying to mother a not-sleeping 18-month-old toddler who is also constantly testing his limits. It’s been exhausting and I haven’t had the mental capacity to write about anything real. But now I do 🙂 Let motherhood update commence.

irst of all, can someone explain to me how my baby now looks like this? He’s a little man now! So handsome. My heart can’t take it.

On looking for work & mothering:

Well, I’m back to being at home full-time with my son. But this time I will be simultaneously studying for my board exam and looking for a job (which may as well be a full-time job in and of itself). I am realizing more and more how much I love being home with Josh and have decided that I don’t think I can work more than 30 hours a week (MAX). I love too many other things. I love being involved at church. I love reading. I love going to mommy groups and hanging out with my boy. I consider motherhood a ministry and one that I really don’t want to take lightly. So as great as it would be to make a full-time salary, I would really rather not.

So for the next month or two you’ll mostly find me running around with Josh, studying for my board exam and getting to know other mommies.

On Fasting:

Some of you know, many of you don’t: I will be fasting most forms of media until September. This includes Facebook, instagram, Pinterest, Snapchat, TV & movies (if you see my blog link posted on FB, my husband did it for me). Obviously I’ve decided to keep blogging, as I find it’s more therapeutic for me than it is distracting and mind-numbing.

But why am I fasting media? Well… a lot of reasons. It started with this book I’m reading (“7: an experimental mutiny against excess”) and I’ve become obscenely aware of how much of the noise in my life distracts me from the things that really matter to me: my time with God. my time with my family. my time with my son. I’ve come to realize how superficial everything has become. How superficial I’ve become. And I don’t like that… I don’t like looking back at my day and realizing how much time I’ve spent mindlessly searching the internet, looking at YouTube videos and stalking everyone’s Facebook. I’m ready for a media detox. It’s only been 6 days and it’s been both harder and easier than I expected. Harder because I LOVEEEEEEE my shows. I just want to watch Mindy Kaling all day and laugh. Easier because I don’t miss social media that much… I may even delete my Facebook when the fasts over… but we’ll see.

On Waiting:

This is an interesting transition in my life. Waiting to work… waiting to make money… waiting for “our lives to resume” (or so that’s what it feels like). I am eager to just move forward and get everything in place, but at the same time, I love where we are right now. And I am constantly learning to stay mindful of the present. Life almost always feels like it’s in a transition phase. For once, I’m going to embrace now.

A few tid-bits you need to know:

  • I started “Something Borrowed” (the book that was on my Fall reading list) and instantly quit. I got to page 30 and couldn’t really handle all the adultery (sorry for ruining the book for you, but that’s the whole premise and it starts within the first 3 pages). I’m okay with putting down a book if I know I won’t like AND it will make me crazy. Just thought I would let you all know.
  • Speaking of books, “7: an experimental mutiny against excess” is messing me up. In such good way. Go read it.
  • Disneyland won major points yesterday. My son had a huge accident in his diaper that went all over his onesie and bottoms (something that actually hasn’t happened since he was less than a year old). One of the ladies who was working at the baby center gave us a slip that let us buy $40 worth of baby pajamas at the Disneystore. WHATTTTTTTTT? Major points, Disney.
  • I finished my “capsule wardrobe” timeline (3 months) and loved it. I’m probably going to keep going (although I threw some of my old clothes back in the closet). I did say I was going to write a post on how it went. Hopefully I’ll get to that soon. Just know, I really liked it.

That’s all for now! Guess that turned into another “list” type post… oh well 🙂 off to mommying! Here’s another snapshot of Josh, just because 🙂


Homemade Playdoh (OT Things)

joshua playdoh Today feels like a good day to put some of my OT (Occupational Therapy) skills to use since I’ll be graduating in ONE WEEK!

In honor of almost being done (EE!), I decided to start a segment of this blog called, “OT Things”, in which I’ll give tips & tricks to help kiddo’s with their fine-motor, social & sensory development. Because that’s a part of what we do as OT’s 🙂

So, Playdoh. It truly has so many benefits for children AND they love it.

why you should make it, rather than buy it:

1. If your kid accidentally eats it, no harm done! It’s edible! (But I definitely do NOT encourage eating it, since it’s really high in sodium)

2. It’s cheap. There’s a good chance you already have all the ingredients.

3. If your kids are older like >3 years, they are going to get such a kick out of MAKING their own playdoh! It’s great bonding & fun for you and your little one.

4. Get creative with it! You can create whatever colors you want using food coloring. And for an added bonus, you can use Kool-aid to make it FLAVORED. Now the kids will really get a kick out of that.

Benefits of Playdoh for Toddlers:

  • Promotes Fine Motor Development Because there are so many different things you can do with playdoh, there are plenty of opportunities for skill enhancement: grasping, dexterity, hand & finger strength & motor control.
  • Engages Sense of Touch An overall wonderful and necessary sensory experience. This is especially helpful for children that need help with sensory processing.
  • It’s FUN! It keeps them entertained and engaged for long stretches of time. Not to mention all the different ways you can use it.

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Homemade Playdough recipe

Ingredients (You can double if you want more)

1 C flour
1 TBS oil
1/4 C salt
1 TBS cream of tartar
3/4 C boiling water
food coloring (optional)

  1. Pour 1 cup of flour into a bowl.
  2. Add 1/4 cup of salt.
  3. Mix in 1 tbsp Cream of Tartar. (You can find this in the spice section of just about any grocery store.)
  4. Add 1 tbsp of oil. For this recipe I used vegetable oil, but you can use any oil, and as long as it’s a kitchen oil, your playdough will be non-toxic and safe if a little one takes a tiny taste.  The sodium level is very high, so we don’t encourage this to double as a snack.
  5. Pour in the boiling water. Be VERY careful because this makes the dough HOT!
  6. Mix all the ingredients together until they form the dough. At this point, if you don’t want to add any food dye to your playdough, you’re finished!
  7. After it’s cooled, to make different colors of playdough, cut the dough in half and roll it up into balls.
  8. Now, punch out the middle of the ball to leave a little bowl for you to pour your gel food dye into.
  9. Drip your gel dye into the bowls. This is a great time to mix dye colors if you want to make another color.
  10. Knead the dough until the dye is thoroughly mixed. This is VERY messy! If you don’t want to stain your hands, use gloves, and make sure to put something down so you don’t stain your counter (like I did).

Adapted slightly from:

Reasons My Son Cried

My son was a little ridiculous last week, so I couldn’t help but post all the reasons why he broke into tears… They’re pretty hilarious. I cut him some slack since he’s 14 months old.


(there’s my son looking like a boss)

Reasons Why My Son Cried Last Week:

  • I wouldn’t let him lick the bottom of my shoe.
  • I left him with my dad for 30 seconds and went to the bathroom. (Just to paint you a picture, he lied on the floor just outside the bathroom door sobbing)
  • I left him at the children’s church on Sunday (I really hope this one changes soon!)
  • I wouldn’t let him throw his dinner on the floor.
  • I tried to make him kiss my cheek.
  • I wouldn’t let him eat a cheerio that he found under our couch. (gross, I know… it’s hard to keep track of all the cheerios, trust me!)
  • I put him down for a nap.
  • I put him in the pack ‘n play.
  • He woke up… At 6 am.
    (I can’t blame him for this one… sometimes I want to cry when I wake up that early too)
  • I wouldn’t let him run into the middle of the street without holding my hand.
  • I wouldn’t let him eat my cookie. (mama needs her cookie. Josh can have his own baby cookie)

Confessions of a mom: Feeling the Gap

When people ask me what I like to do for fun, a million responses come to mind:

I love to travel (anywhere & everywhere). I always crave a quality girls night, obviously involving chocolate, fancy cheese & wine. I like yoga and dance, reading and writing. Anything that involves socializing and getting real, quality time with people I love may be at the top of my list.

But when I think about the past year or so, here’s a more accurate depiction of how I’ve spent my time:

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Yes, that’s me and the babes 🙂

Becoming a mom obviously changes your life in every imaginable way. But there was one transition I did not prepare well for: the gap in my social life.

Although I have been a mom for a little over a year now, I have just recently come to the realization that there is a predominant struggle in my social life: my expectations are not aligning with reality (you know… like that scene from ‘500 Days of Summer’).


The changes that were to ensue in my friendships (post-motherhood) were unavoidable, yet they strongly affected me, in a way that I did not see coming.

I crave to be with people, yet my mental and physical fuel is empty. If a moment comes where I actually have the stamina for going out, there’s a good chance I am unavailable, either with my head buried in the textbooks or with my hands covered in sand from running around with the little one. I’m often in need of a date night, but time, energy & childcare is not always at my beck and call.

How was I to know that, despite having a full schedule, I could feel so isolated? How could I have foreseen that becoming a mom would change my relationships with people, not just in closeness, but in depth and quality time spent together? It surprised me to see my happy-go-lucky, extraverted self become unendingly tired and turning down countless social events for the sheer fact that I need some serious R & R… with me, myself & I.

After reaching out to girlfriends, mentors & fellow moms, I’ve come to realize that there are seasons of loneliness accompanied by motherhood. No mom is alone in the struggle. And although becoming a mom is one of the best things I’ll ever do with my life, it is also exceedingly life-changing.

Social life inevitably changes. And I am slowly allowing my expectations to align with reality: It is not that I need to be less of a friend or that I cannot love as much… I simply need to love differently. I need to find more creative and intentional ways of getting quality time or showing someone I care. And for my own sanity, I need to realize that it’s okay to not be at everything and keep up with everyone.

I am grateful for supportive & loving friends that can walk through this transition with me!

What changes have you encountered in the social world since parenthood?

Confessions of a Mom: Things I Secretly Love

  • 7 PM
    Joshua’s current bedtime. Sometimes Nick and I will have a countdown running in our heads… true story.
  • Nap time 
    The only time I get work done during the day.
  • When Joshua’s hair sticks up in the morning (like alfalfa) 

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  • Joshua being biracial
    Isn’t it pretty cool to see so much culture seeped into one little person? I love that he is a part of two cultures that typically don’t blend (Persian and Chinese). He gets to be fully Persian, Chinese and American all at the same time. And we get to celebrate every part of who he is.
  • Joshua’s cousins being biracial
    I always wondered if he would feel left out on either the Persian end or the Asian end for not feeling fully one or the other. So I love that we have so much multi-ethnicity on both sides of the family. I guess we’re you’re modern American family 🙂
  • Disney Toys
    For mom, I MEAN Joshua. I can’t help it… I love little kid Disney stuff. Sometimes when we’re at Disneyland (which may be a little too often), I’ll go into the stores and make note of stuff I want… and then remember to mark it as a potential gift for Joshua’s birthday (woopsy). I’m half-kidding… ish.
  • When Joshua falls asleep in my arms.
    This is like winning the lottery. He never does this anymore… but on rare occasions when he does (like in a plane… or if he happens to wake up really early in the morning), it feels like I’ve died and gone to heaven.


  • When I go over to a mom friends house and it’s messy (like mine).
    I love it when people keep their places as is when others come over. It seriously takes so much pressure off of everyone. It’s nearly impossible to keep your place spotless with a kid… you have toys EVERYWHERE. I love it when moms just let their places look as they should… well-lived in and well-loved.
  • When friends come over to play with/feed/take care of Josh.
    Thank you to all of our incredible friends for helping out with Josh. It truly feels like family.
  • When Joshua says ‘mama’.
    Don’t get me wrong, I love it when he says anything. But there’s something about ‘mama’ that melts my heart.
  • When there’s a changing station in the men’s bathroom.
    Nothing says progressive like placing a changing station in a men’s bathroom (you won’t believe how rare this is). Let’s give dads the ability to change their kids if necessary… they’re parents too.


Confessions of a Mom: “Is this normal?”

Here’s my first mommy confession: I don’t know what’s normal.

Half the time I’m with my son, I really and truly do not know if my experiences in parenting are of the norm or totally out of whack.


Whether it’s realizing that Joshua just tore off his bandaid and ate it, or simply feeling utterly overwhelmed with life, I often feel desperate for assurance from other mothers to remind me that I’m not crazy.

When you’re a young mom, you’re more often than not, trailblazing the path of motherhood for all your other friends. It’s exhausting needing to figure stuff out on your own. And it’s vital to find some mommy friends to walk with you on this journey.

Mommy confessions:

  • Sometimes I’ll leave Josh in the pack ‘n play with a bunch of toys for 20 minutes while I get some work/cleaning done around the apartment.
  • I don’t have much of an issue with Josh eating food that has fallen on the floor.
  • I feel less sharp than I used to be (pre-baby).
  • I love my son SO much that I really can’t imagine how my heart will have the capacity to love the rest of my kids. Does your heart literally just explode with love?
  • I feel tired almost all the time.
  • Despite that… I hate it when people tell me how tired I look.
  • I still feel somewhat insecure about being such a young mom (lies like “you’re too young and immature for this” creep their way in sometimes… I know they’re not true).
  • I am constantly praying for God to help me surrender my mommy-control issues over to him. Josh is God’s son first.
  • I miss having frequent and accessible one-on-one time with Nick.
  • I love having a toddler because that means I can obsess over Disney as much as I want and pretend like I love it for Josh (teehee).

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  • I really wish I knew more moms to talk to and pray with.
  • I don’t know where I end & Joshua begins (& vice versa). My identity gets way too intertwined with motherhood.

That’s about all the vulnerability I can put into one post.

All this to say, that I think us mama’s have to stick together. I love my single friends, but I also need mom friends to walk this crazy journey with me and remind me that it’s okay to feel exhausted. It’s okay to mess up. We have all been there.

I’m extremely grateful that I joined a moms group once I had Josh. I hope that I always have mothers around me to talk and pray with. If this post is anything, it’s a reminder and push for moms to start meeting, being vulnerable with each other, & praying for one another and each other’s kids together. It’s invaluable.